Beyond Labels: Why Name-Calling Harms More Than It Helps
In the run-up to public demonstrations or moments of collective expression, it’s common to see leaders, politicians, and media rushing to apply labels. Before a single banner is raised, the story is already framed: one side dismissed as extremist, the other portrayed as the sole voice of reason.
But labels aren’t neutral descriptions. They are frames — ways of telling the public how to see someone before they’ve even spoken.
The Harm of Political Labels
When figures are branded as far right or far left, it rarely reflects the whole picture. These labels don’t invite conversation; they shut it down. They strip away nuance, dismiss complexity, and encourage the public to view people through the narrowest possible lens.
From a trauma-informed perspective, this is deeply harmful. Every human being has a past — and most of us, if judged only on our younger, more naïve selves, would look very different to who we are today. Growth is part of the human journey. Yet in political discourse, past affiliations or mistakes are often pinned to people forever, as though change were impossible.
What’s striking is the double standard: governments call for trauma-informed rehabilitation for prisoners — recognising the possibility of growth and second chances — while simultaneously denying that same grace to those in public life. We cannot have it both ways. Either we believe people can change, or we don’t.
Too often, people don’t look beyond the label. They parrot what they’ve read in headlines or heard repeated by authority figures, rarely stopping to ask whether it’s fair or accurate. This isn’t because people are thoughtless — it’s because belonging feels safe. It can feel easier to echo the loudest voice than to question it. But if we want real change, we need to be willing to look beyond the ready-made story. We need to ask, what’s underneath the label? What’s the full human story? Only then do we create the possibility of genuine understanding and transformation.
Pathologising Language in Everyday Life
This habit of labelling extends far beyond politics. In everyday conversations, especially around mental health, we often hear pathologising words thrown out casually: narcissist, psychopath, slut. These are not neutral descriptors; they are weapons, used to silence or condemn.
Such words often come from pain, betrayal, or fear. Instead of saying, “I was hurt,” it can feel easier to declare, “They’re a narcissist.” Instead of sitting with discomfort, we reach for a label that ends the conversation.
But these terms serve another purpose too: they divide. They separate us from them. They let us dismiss whole people instead of listening to the point they are trying to make.
The Unequal Weight of Words
What troubles me most is how society treats some labels as unacceptable while others are tolerated. Rightly, many discriminatory slurs are challenged. Yet when people in positions of power fling words like narcissist or extremist, it’s often excused.
Why is one form of dehumanisation condemned while another is normalised? Why do we allow leaders, politicians, and media to use labels as weapons, when in any other context we would call it bullying?
Shouldn’t those with the greatest influence be held to the highest standard of compassion and fairness, not the lowest?
Another subtle harm in labelling is the way it gets reported. We often hear phrases like “self-professed” this or that — as though the person has chosen the label for themselves. In reality, many people have simply been given that label by others. What often happens is reframing: “If this label means I stand for honesty, or fairness, or protecting children, then I’ll wear it.” But that is not the same as self-identification. It is resistance to an imposed name, not genuine ownership of it. Pretending otherwise distorts the truth and keeps the cycle of name-calling alive.
Rupture and Repair vs. Division and Dismissal
In trauma-informed practice, we talk about rupture and repair. Disagreements happen. Misattunements happen. But healing comes in the repair — in the return to empathy, in the willingness to listen, in the rebuilding of trust.
Contrast this with public discourse. Instead of repair, we see rupture upon rupture. Leaders slur those they disagree with. Media caricature complex movements or individuals. Opposing perspectives are written off before they’ve been heard.
This isn’t leadership. It’s childishness dressed up as authority.
Too often in public debate, we don’t really listen. We pause only long enough to prepare our counter-argument, waiting for our turn to speak. That isn’t listening — it’s a form of self-defence. It’s a knee-jerk reaction, rooted in survival mode, where the nervous system prioritises winning or protecting rather than understanding. When we listen only to reply, not to understand, we remain stuck in conflict. Real dialogue begins when we listen with the intent to hear, not the intent to fight back.
Towards Rational Debate and Empathic Understanding
Every perspective — whether we agree with it or not — comes from somewhere. People gather in public because they care, because they want to be heard. They come from different backgrounds, colours, and experiences, often standing together around a shared value. To dismiss all of that with a single political label is misleading at best, and divisive at worst.
A trauma-informed society would do better. It would hold space for rational debate, recognising that disagreement doesn’t have to mean disrespect. It would place empathy at the heart of dialogue, especially towards those we oppose. Because compassion isn’t just for the people we like — it is tested most in how we treat those we don’t.
A Call for Something Higher
We are all more than the worst label ever applied to us. To pin people forever to their pasts, or to weaponise diagnoses and slurs as insults, is both unfair and deeply damaging.
If we want a society that heals, we need leaders, media, and communities willing to rise above name-calling. We need dialogue that is rational, not reactionary. We need empathy that stretches beyond our own tribe.
Because the true measure of compassion is not how we treat those who agree with us — it’s how we treat those who don’t.
Mushrooms in the Dark
There’s an old saying: “Treat people like mushrooms – feed them BS and keep them in the dark.”
Never has that felt more relevant than today.
Normally, I try not to get into politics. It’s not my world, and I prefer to focus on healing, growth, and the human spirit. But right now, it’s hard not to—because the choices being made ripple into every part of our lives. No one is untouched.
It doesn’t just feel chaotic here in the UK. It seems crazy all over the world. And the systems that were once set up to protect us, to make sure what’s happening now could never happen, are failing. The truth is, they’ve always failed to protect some groups of people. Victims have often been the ones blamed—subjected to rough justice, scapegoated, silenced. It’s not the people governed by these systems who are broken. It’s the systems themselves. And they have been, for as long as I’ve lived.
All around us, decisions are being made that directly affect our lives. Yet instead of honesty and transparency, we’re served fear-mongering, gaslighting, and secrecy. The message from the top seems to be: people are too stupid to handle the truth.
Like narcissists, those in power appear to imagine themselves superior—more capable, more entitled to knowledge—while the rest of us are expected to obey and endure.
We see it in the way plans are quietly published online but never properly explained. Communities are left to stew in worry and speculation instead of being trusted with open dialogue. We see it in how Keir Starmer carries himself as Prime Minister: playing politics like a courtroom battle he intends to win, keeping his cards close, calculating each move, and treating the public as an opponent rather than those he serves.
From plans for “mass fatalities” to schools training for lockdown, to the silencing of voices through arrests, the pattern is clear: sow distress, provoke outrage, and then step in as if to “restore order.” It feels less like governance and more like design.
As someone who studies trauma, I know how repetition shapes the brain. Repetition is the driver of neuroplasticity—the way our nervous systems adapt and rewire. Keep people in survival mode, and you keep them predictable. Threat after threat, division after division—rights removed from some, given to others—like an abusive parent pitting siblings against each other. It ensures our focus remains exactly where those in power want it: on fear, scarcity, and conflict.
This is where the damage goes deeper and division sets in. People getting angry at others for receiving food or heating support while they themselves are struggling to survive. But anger at another person being fed isn’t the way forward. Everyone deserves food, warmth, and dignity. What we should be upset about is the injustice and inequality of the systems—not each other.
But here’s the truth they don’t want you to see:
What we focus on every day becomes the reality we live.
If we continue to feed on the fear, we will live in fear. If we choose instead to focus on the lives we want to experience—connection, safety, dignity, freedom—we begin to carve those into existence.
And the tools we need to rebuild aren’t secrecy, manipulation, or control. They are empathy, kindness, and compassion. These are what heal broken souls and, by extension, broken systems. Yet those qualities are hardest to access when we’re all pushed into survival mode. When people are fighting to survive, their capacity to extend compassion narrows. And that, perhaps, is the most dangerous design of all.
Circumnavigating absurdities may be the sanest act of resistance right now. Turning our attention toward what heals, what builds, and what uplifts may be the most radical form of freedom we have.
Because mushrooms grow in the dark. But people? People thrive in the light.
This is my perspective, given the life I’ve lived.
The Mirror of Projection: Why We See Narcissists Everywhere but Ourselves
The word narcissist has become one of the most overused labels of our time. Scroll through social media or listen to conversations and it doesn’t take long before someone is accused of being one. It’s a word often thrown like a dart—sharp, loaded, and designed to stick.
But what happens when the very behaviours we condemn in others are the same ones we practise ourselves?
What Projection Really Means
Projection is the psychological process of disowning uncomfortable feelings or traits within ourselves and attributing them to someone else. It’s a very human defence mechanism—we all do it. But when projection becomes a habit, it blinds us to the role we play in our relationships and keeps us stuck in cycles of blame.
Consider the behaviours often attributed to so-called “narcissists”:
- Being rude, passive-aggressive, or dismissive.
- Minimising the feelings of others.
- Expecting constant understanding and forgiveness.
- Making demands and becoming angry when needs aren’t met.
- Overriding boundaries or personal choices.
- Judging, criticising, or using sarcasm as armour.
- Asking for advice while secretly believing we know best.
Uncomfortable as it is to admit, most of us have displayed these behaviours at some point. The problem isn’t that we sometimes slip into them—the problem is when we refuse to take accountability, pointing the finger outwards instead: “They’re the narcissist, not me.”
And so the cycle repeats. When someone suggests we might be projecting, the response is often defensiveness—self-pity, guilt-tripping, or manipulation—anything but reflection.
Unseen Currents: Behaviour Beneath the Surface
Why do we find it so hard to see our own patterns?
Because much of our behaviour is shaped outside of conscious awareness. Trauma expert Bessel van der Kolk describes how people become “expert at ignoring their gut feelings and numbing awareness of what is played out inside.” In neuroscience, studies suggest that up to 95% of our brain’s activity is unconscious—meaning most of our thoughts, impulses, and reactions happen beneath the surface.
We may feel the anger, rage, or hurt inside us—but the way it leaks out through our tone, words, or behaviour often sits in a blind spot. These blind spots make projection almost inevitable, because it feels easier to see the problem in someone else than to look within.
The Swinging Scale of Behaviour
In truth, we are all on a scale, swinging between different forms of incongruence. Sometimes we tip towards narcissistic-style behaviours—self-protective, critical, or dismissive. Other times we swing the other way, towards people-pleasing—over-accommodating, self-erasing, or overly compliant.
Neither extreme brings balance. Both are protective strategies, often rooted in early survival responses.
The real work is to notice the swing within ourselves. To pause before accusing someone else of being “the problem” and ask:
- Am I showing any of these behaviours myself right now?
- What feelings am I struggling to face that I’d rather project outward?
- What might accountability look like in this moment?
The Inversion: When Projection Turns Inward
Projection doesn’t always look like blaming others. Sometimes it flips inward. Instead of calling everyone else the problem, people make themselves the problem — but not in a way that brings growth.
You’ve probably seen it: someone insists everything is their fault, openly declaring their own brokenness or worthlessness. On the surface, it looks like accountability. But often, it’s something different. It’s a way of staying stuck — of drowning in self-hatred, guilt, or shame without ever moving towards change.
This inversion is another form of avoidance. By making it all about “I’m just a terrible person” or “It’s all my fault,” the real work of self-examination gets bypassed. Nothing shifts, because self-blame is being used as another protective shield — a way to gain sympathy, silence criticism, or avoid the discomfort of honest reflection and responsibility.
True accountability isn’t about hating ourselves. It’s about recognising where our behaviours hurt others, and then doing something different.
Finding the Centre
At the centre of this scale sits balance—the place where empathy, compassion, kindness, justice, honesty, and understanding live.
It’s not about perfection. It’s about awareness. It’s about recognising that while projection is human, accountability is healing. When we stop throwing labels and start owning our shadows, we create space for real connection—with ourselves and with others.
Because the truth is, calling someone a narcissist doesn’t make us less so. But choosing empathy, compassion, and self-reflection—that is what breaks the cycle.
Why Self-Compassion Comes First
And this is why we always begin with self-compassion and awareness. Without compassion, self-reflection can easily spiral into self-hatred. But with compassion, we create the safety to look at ourselves honestly.
If even the suggestion of checking ourselves causes deep pain, fear, panic, anxiety, anger, or denial—if our instinct is to avoid, shut down, defend, or deflect—that in itself is worth noticing. Those are signs that something inside us has been activated.
It’s important to remember: triggers live inside us, not in the other person. While someone may spark them, the intensity of the reaction belongs to our own nervous system, our own history.
The invitation, then, is not to judge ourselves but to get curious. To ask:
- What am I feeling right now?
- Why is this so uncomfortable?
- What does this reaction reveal about my own wounds or needs?
Because understanding the what and why of those feelings is the path towards healing. Awareness, paired with compassion, is how we stop projecting outward or collapsing inward—and instead, find the steady ground of balance.
When we start from compassion, awareness becomes liberating instead of crushing. We can admit our flaws without being defined by them. We can see our protective patterns without shame. And most importantly, we can move towards balance — where empathy, kindness, honesty, and justice sit at the centre.
Because the goal is never to be flawless or perfect. The goal is to be human with awareness. And self-compassion is what makes that possible.
In Closing:
Projection can feel like a mirror we want to smash, but if we dare to look into it with honesty, we may just see the path back to balance staring right back at us.
The Girl in the Dirty Dress
The Girl in the Dirty Dress: Shame, Survival, and the Power of Co-Regulation
When our nervous system is overwhelmed, our rational, intelligent thinking brain goes offline. In those moments, the body does what it must to survive. We freeze. We go silent. We disconnect. Years later, many of us look back on those frozen moments with shame, asking ourselves: “Why didn’t I scream? Why didn’t I run? Why didn’t I fight back?”
But these aren’t failures. They are survival responses. And when those responses happen in childhood, they can leave behind powerful images and beliefs that shape the way we see ourselves for years to come.
The Image That Stayed With Me
When I was seven years old, new in a foreign country, a teacher dragged me to the front of the classroom. She pointed to the food stains on my dress and encouraged the other children to laugh at me.
She never asked why my dress was dirty. She didn’t know that the airplane carrying everything we owned had crashed, killing the entire crew. She didn’t know that I had only the clothes I’d arrived in, or that my mother was distraught and bedridden with grief.
So I stood there, cheeks burning, motionless, voiceless, ashamed. And while the teacher shaped how the other children saw me that day, what mattered even more was how I came to see myself.
I was the girl in the dirty dress. Those urghhs and pointed fingers weren’t just playground taunts — they became evidence of my failure. Proof that I didn’t belong. Proof that I would never be good enough or fit in. Even when I could understand the circumstances later on, those truths faded into insignificance. The image of that seven-year-old became a barrier in my mind that I couldn’t move beyond — like the ant trapped inside a circle drawn in chalk, unable to see that the boundary was never really there.
How It Shaped My Adult Life
That moment didn’t stay in the classroom. It followed me into adulthood. I found myself unable to face or speak in front of a crowd. The same burning cheeks, frozen body, and silent voice that had trapped me at seven returned whenever I stood before others.
What I didn’t realise then was that my avoidance of public speaking wasn’t about ability — it was about survival. My nervous system remembered the humiliation, the laughter, the shame. It protected me the only way it knew how: by keeping me away from the threat of being seen.
Recognising the link between that childhood incident and my adult patterns of avoidance was life-changing. It helped me see that the “hand-drawn circle” keeping me trapped was not real. With compassion and co-regulation, I began to step beyond it — one small step at a time.
Trauma and the Dorsal Vagal State
This is what happens to victims. They develop what is often called a victim mentality — not because they are weak, but because they are victims. Their nervous systems have been plunged into the abyss by horrors they could not escape.
Polyvagal Theory, developed by Stephen Porges, explains this with the dorsal vagal state. When fight or flight are not possible — especially when a child faces an adult — the body shuts down. It collapses. It disappears inward. This is not a choice. It is biology.
The problem is that the image of those moments — the freeze, the shame, the silence — becomes etched into memory. Over time, the inner critic uses them as evidence: “See? You’re not enough. You failed. You’ll never belong.” The survival response becomes welded to core beliefs of unworthiness.
The Only Way Back: Co-Regulation
For those who have experienced complex trauma, thinking their way out of dorsal is impossible. The prefrontal cortex — the thinking brain — is offline. The survival brain is in charge.
The only way back from dorsal is through co-regulation.
That means being with someone who is safe, compassionate, non-judgmental, and empathetic — someone who can hold space without shaming, fixing, or minimising.
Carl Rogers called these the core conditions of the person-centred approach:
- Congruence (genuineness),
- Unconditional Positive Regard,
- Empathic Understanding.
Whether offered by a therapist, a loved one, or a trusted friend, these qualities create a safe relational field. Safety allows the nervous system to come back online. It allows connection to replace collapse. It allows healing to begin.
In Conclusion
That seven-year-old girl in the dirty dress stayed with me for many years, shaping how I saw myself and what I believed I deserved. She kept me silent in classrooms, boardrooms, and auditoriums long after the incident was over. But today I know this: she wasn’t a failure. She was surviving the only way her body knew how.
If you carry shame from moments where you froze, went silent, or disappeared — please know this: your nervous system was protecting you. Freezing is not weakness. It is survival.
And survival is something to honour, not condemn.
Be kind to yourself. Self-compassion doesn’t erase the past, but it does release us from the prison of shame. And when we allow ourselves to co-regulate with safe, compassionate others, we find our way back to connection, to healing, and to freedom.
Reflection Prompt
Can you recall a moment when you judged yourself for freezing, going silent, or shutting down?
What might shift if you saw that moment not as failure — but as your body’s wisdom keeping you safe?
When Trauma Speaks in Dreams: From Nightmares to Healing
For many years, I have experienced vivid dreams that stayed with me long after waking. You know the kind - that leave a trace of terror in your soul. At times they left me panicked, sweating, or in tears. For a long time, I wondered why my mind wouldn’t let me rest. But as I’ve learned more about trauma and healing, I’ve come to see that these dreams were not just random stories — they were my body and nervous system processing what once felt unbearable.
The man in the shadows
After being attacked as a child, I carried the fear of that moment with me into my nights. Because there was no justice, no safety restored, my nervous system never fully switched off the alarm.
For years, I dreamt of that man climbing onto the porch, slipping in through the window, or lurking in the shadows. I would wake terrified, convinced he was still there. These nightmares were my mind’s way of showing me how unsafe I felt, and how deeply the violation had crossed into what should have been safe space.
The shadow at my bedside
Later in life, I would wake screaming, convinced a shadowy man stood beside my bed — sometimes with a weapon, always threatening. My body reacted as though the danger was real: racing heart, shallow breath, paralysing fear.
It would take a long time to settle, to believe I was truly safe. Often it was my husband’s gentle reassurance — “You’re safe, I’m here” — that helped my body come back to calm.
These dreams weren’t simply bad luck. They were my nervous system replaying the terror I once lived through, long after the events had ended.
The sky turning black
Another recurring nightmare placed me in a crowded room — people busy talking, distracted — while I stared out of the windows at the sky. Suddenly, the clouds would race across the horizon, turning darker and darker until they threatened to consume everything.
I knew instinctively that if the sky turned fully black, it meant the end of humanity. I tried to raise the alarm, but no one listened. Chaos erupted. People screamed. The wind howled.
And then I would fall to my knees and pray. Over and over, I prayed, even as fear and confusion tried to silence me. Sometimes I came face to face with the devil himself — his eyes burning red as he tried to break my focus. But I clung tightly to a pinhole of light — and eventually, the sky would break open. The darkness would part. Blue skies returned, and peace was restored.
This nightmare always left me shaken. Yet, in time, I realised it carried a message: even in the darkest chaos, some part of me refused to give in. My deepest instinct was to cling to hope and faith until the light returned.
The plane in the sky
More recently, I dreamt I was driving away from my hometown on a warm evening. I looked to my right and noticed an airplane tilting sideways in the sky. Moments later, I saw it spiral down in my rear-view mirror, disappearing behind houses before a sudden explosion filled the horizon.
In the dream, I stopped my car and ran back, shouting to warn others of what I had seen. I wasn’t afraid for my own safety, nor did I believe my family was harmed. Instead, I felt a deep urgency to tell them the truth — that I had witnessed the danger before it struck.
This dream felt different. It showed me that I was no longer caught in the wreckage of my past. Instead, I had become the witness — the one who could see clearly and give warning, the one with a voice.
Why our dreams matter
Trauma doesn’t vanish when the danger is over. It lingers in the body, in the nervous system, and in the subconscious. During sleep — especially in vivid REM dreams — the brain processes fragments of memory, sensation, and fear. That’s why survivors often experience nightmares of catastrophe, violence, or overwhelming darkness.
But within those dreams, there is also meaning.
- The shadow by the bed revealed how the body holds memory long after danger has passed.
- The black sky showed despair and chaos, yet also my instinct to cling to light until hope returned — even when faced with evil’s red eyes.
- The plane crash symbolised my shift from silence to voice, from being inside the trauma to being able to stand outside it and share what I have seen.
When we sleep, especially during REM (rapid eye movement) cycles, our brains are busy sorting through the day’s experiences, emotions, and unresolved memories. For people who have lived through trauma, this process can be intense. Nightmares often appear because the brain is trying to integrate overwhelming experiences that were too much to process at the time they happened. Instead of being random, these dreams are the mind’s attempt to re-file fear and survival memories into a safer place.
This process is very similar to what happens in EMDR therapy (Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing), where eye movements or other forms of bilateral stimulation help the brain safely reprocess traumatic memories. In a way, our dreams show us that the body already knows how to heal — it just needs time, space, and sometimes guidance to finish the work.
This is why paying attention to our dreams can be so important. They give us glimpses into where we are in our healing — showing us not only the echoes of fear, but also the signs of resilience, faith, and growth that emerge over time.
From nightmares to healing
If you’ve experienced trauma, your dreams may sometimes feel frightening or relentless. But they are not meaningless. They are your mind and body’s way of working through what was once unbearable.
And here is the hope: even in nightmares, healing leaves its trace. The act of praying, of clinging to light, of finding your voice, of being reassured back into safety — these are not just dream details. They are survival strategies, signs of growth, and reminders that even after the worst has happened, restoration is possible.
Trauma may shape our nights, but healing shapes our mornings. We can wake not only with the memory of fear, but with the quiet knowledge that we are stronger than the darkness, and that peace always finds a way back in.
Breaking the Self-Fulfilling Prophecies of Trauma
Complex trauma leaves invisible imprints that can quietly shape how we see ourselves, others, and the world. One of the most powerful — and painful — ways this shows up is through self-fulfilling prophecies.
Rejection
Take rejection, for example. A simple, everyday situation like sending a text to a friend can trigger an entire spiral.
At first, the person waits patiently, refreshing their phone every few moments to check if the message has been read. When no reply comes, the internal dialogue starts:
“They’re ignoring me. I must have said something wrong. They don’t like me anymore.”
The mind races to scan previous conversations, searching for proof of where it all went wrong. Anxiety grows. A hidden “deadline” is set — a certain amount of time the friend has to respond before it confirms the fear of rejection.
The friend, of course, has no idea this deadline even exists.
If the reply doesn’t come, the spiral intensifies. In an attempt to take control of the rejection, the person with complex trauma may block the friend or cut contact first. From their perspective, this feels protective: “If you’re going to hurt me, I’ll end it on my terms.”
But to the unsuspecting friend — who may simply be at work, busy with children, or out of phone signal — this sudden reaction feels confusing and hurtful. They are accused, punished, or shut out without ever knowing a problem existed.
On the surface, the person with trauma may offer justifications: “I was worried when you didn’t reply… I thought something bad had happened.” Yet beneath this, the real driver is not concern for the other, but unresolved fears of rejection, betrayal, and abandonment.
And here’s the paradox: even if the original fear wasn’t true, the reaction makes it so. By blocking, ending the friendship, or pushing the other away, the feared outcome — rejection and loss of connection — becomes inevitable.
This cycle feeds the core beliefs shaped by trauma:
- Nobody loves me.
- Everyone rejects me.
- I’m not good enough.
Round and round it goes, reinforcing the very pain the person is trying to avoid.
Betrayal
Another common cycle is betrayal. Someone carrying the wounds of past betrayals may find themselves constantly scanning for evidence of it happening again.
This might look like secretly checking a partner’s clothing for lipstick marks or unfamiliar odours, going through pockets, scrolling through their phone, or dissecting every detail of a story for inconsistencies.
The brain, primed by past hurt, interprets what it sees through a lens of suspicion. Even something harmless — a text from a colleague, a receipt in a pocket, or a shift in tone — can be seen as “proof.” If you look hard enough, you’ll always find something that confirms your fears, because your mind will bend the evidence to fit the narrative.
But here’s the truth: if you are doubting someone to the point of needing to check, the relationship is already broken. Trust is gone.
If old wounds from previous betrayals remain unhealed, they get carried into every new connection. What begins as self-protection quickly becomes self-sabotage, pushing away the very safety and intimacy that is longed for.
The responsibility here isn’t about policing a partner. It’s about healing. You owe it to yourself — and to anyone you’re in a relationship with — to address the pain of betrayal before starting again. Otherwise, the past keeps dictating the future.
Self-Blame Is Not Self-Awareness
It’s important to note that constantly blaming ourselves is not the same as being self-aware.
We might say things like:
“Oh, I know it’s me. I’m really sorry, but it’s happened before and I was scared it would happen again.”
That isn’t true self-awareness — it’s a way of justifying behaviour that was unjust towards someone else. Words like this may sound accountable, but they often function as excuses that mask the deeper issue.
The impact we have on others matters. Carrying a diagnosis such as CPTSR, BPD, or any other label, is never a valid excuse for treating people badly or abusing others. Too often these words are used to hand away responsibility:
- “It’s my disorder that makes me volatile, it’s not me.”
- “I can’t help it, it’s my trauma response.”
But here’s the truth: we can all choose not to hurt the people who love us. Diagnosis can help us understand ourselves, but it should never be used as a shield to justify harmful behaviour.
We are all responsible for the impact of our words and actions. And with that responsibility comes a duty — to ourselves and to others — to do the work of healing.
No one is suggesting this work is easy. Trauma recovery is complex, layered, and often exhausting. But neuroplasticity means change is possible. The brain can rewire. New patterns can be formed. Which means we all have a choice.
True self-awareness is the first step. It doesn’t look like self-blame or excuse-making. It looks like recognising when our fears and reactions are spilling over onto others, and making a conscious commitment to break the cycle.
The Role of Self-Compassion
Personal accountability is vital, but we cannot reach it through shame or harshness. Without compassion, the inner barriers slam shut and survival mode takes over, making real learning and healing impossible.
Self-compassion allows us to face the truth of our patterns without being consumed by guilt or self-hatred. It creates the space to say:
“Yes, this is what I’m doing… and I can choose differently.”
Equally important are safe spaces — relationships, therapy, and communities where honesty is met with kindness rather than judgment. When someone feels safe enough to explore their reactions without fear of attack, their nervous system can soften, and change becomes possible.
Accountability without compassion risks retraumatising. Compassion without accountability risks enabling. True healing needs both.
It’s also important to acknowledge the impact on those who care. People who are empathetic will often go to great lengths to understand behaviours they don’t comprehend, simply because they care deeply or because they are committed to being a better friend, partner, or family member.
They may keep giving reassurance, keep offering chances, and keep moving the goalposts. They justify the behaviour to themselves, and to others who only see the harm being caused.
But the truth is, reassurance, understanding, and support have a shelf life if the person with trauma keeps repeating the same cycles without making any effort to change. Healing is a two-way street. Yes, we need compassion and safe support — but it cannot be given endlessly without some commitment from us in return.
Real change is not about masking, avoiding, or making excuses. It is about doing the work so the results become clear in our words, behaviours, and relationships.
Relationships are rarely unconditional. They require effort from both sides. If we want to keep the people who love us, then we must take responsibility and do the work.
Breaking the Cycle
Noticing when the spiral starts — whether it’s checking your phone every few minutes or rifling through someone’s belongings — is an opportunity to pause. The intensity of the reaction isn’t really about the other person. It’s about old wounds that still ache.
Supportive therapy, nervous system regulation, and learning to sit with the discomfort rather than act on it are powerful ways to begin breaking the pattern. Healing comes when we stop looking outward for proof of rejection or betrayal and start tending to what lives inside.
Complex trauma doesn’t have to dictate our relationships. With compassion, accountability, and awareness, the cycle can be interrupted, and connection — the very thing we long for — can finally become safe and sustainable.
The Power of Telling the Truth About Anxiety
Last night, during our CBT group for anxiety, we watched a short video showing common situations that can trigger anxious thoughts — like public speaking. The narrator offered examples of typical worries: “I might forget my words… I might embarrass myself… people will see I’m nervous and judge me.”
The suggested solutions were reframes: “It’s okay to be nervous, lots of people are… the more I talk the less people will notice… the more I practice, the better I’ll get.”
All useful strategies. But I couldn’t help noticing something important was missing — something that made all the difference for me personally in overcoming years of struggle with public speaking, even to the point of vasovagal syncope (fainting).
That missing piece? Telling the truth.
If we’re reframing our anxious thoughts with statements like “most people get nervous about public speaking” or “it’s okay to feel this way,” then what’s wrong with actually saying that out loud? While we are teaching people to reframe, why not also teach truth-telling? If it’s true — and it usually is — sharing it removes the pressure to pretend. Instead of battling with ourselves in silence, we let others in on the reality of our experience. That simple act of honesty dismantles the fear of being “found out” and replaces it with connection and understanding.
Why Masking Keeps Us Trapped
So much advice around anxiety encourages us to mask what we’re really experiencing. We’re told to “manage it,” “hide it,” or “reframe it” until it goes away. But in my experience, masking fuels anxiety. It adds another layer of fear: the hope that “no one will notice.”
Instead of helping, it creates pressure. We’re performing “okay-ness” on the outside while our nervous system is still convinced there’s an invisible lion in the room.
The Shift That Changed Everything
For me, the quickest and most effective way to remove the fear of speaking wasn’t hiding — it was honesty.
I began opening with the truth:
- “Speaking in front of people has been so difficult for me that I’ve fainted from fear.”
- “Although I know I’m among friends who aren’t here to attack me, my protective brain still scans the room for danger.”
- “Before I continue, could we take a moment to breathe together? Co-regulation helps me settle, and I’d appreciate your support.”
What happens in that moment is extraordinary. The fear of being judged dissolves, because I’ve already explained what’s happening. People understand. And instead of feeling alone in my anxiety, I feel connected.
Co-Regulation Before Self-Regulation
Neuroscience helps us understand why this works. Regulation doesn’t always start inside us — often, it starts between us.
When I invite others to breathe with me, we co-regulate. That shared rhythm brings safety to the nervous system. From there, self-regulation becomes possible.
This approach transforms public speaking from a battle with my body into an honest exchange of energy and understanding.
Anxiety Meets Authenticity
The truth is, nerves are human. Admitting them doesn’t make us weak — it makes us real. And real is where connection happens.
Rather than hoping no one notices, we can reframe our anxiety through authenticity:
- “It’s okay to be nervous.”
- “It’s okay to tell the truth about it.”
- “It’s okay to ask for support.”
That shift doesn’t just ease anxiety — it builds resilience, trust, and genuine connection.
Final Thought
If anxiety has been holding you back, try experimenting with honesty. In safe situations, name what’s happening for you. Ask for a moment to breathe together. You may find, as I did, that the weight of hiding is far heavier than the weight of truth.
Authenticity doesn’t just quiet the fear of being judged — it creates the safety and compassion we need to grow.
What Does It Really Mean to Love and Accept Yourself Unconditionally?
“Love and accept yourself unconditionally.”
It sounds beautiful, doesn’t it? But for many of us, those words land with a thud. Instead of comfort, we feel resistance. Instead of inspiration, we feel guilt, shame, or even anger.
I remember hearing that phrase at different points in my own healing journey and thinking: “If I can’t do this, does that mean I’m broken beyond repair?” What I didn’t realise then was that struggling to connect with those words doesn’t mean you’ve failed – it means you’re human, and often it means you’ve been through experiences that made self-love feel unsafe or unreachable.
The Myth of Instant Self-Love
We live in a culture that sells self-love as a quick affirmation, a bubble bath, or a mindset shift. But real healing doesn’t happen in a straight line.
When you’ve lived with trauma, shame, or the constant demands of an inner critic (what I call the “inner terrorist”), unconditional self-love isn’t a switch you flick on. It’s a gradual process of unlearning old patterns, meeting yourself with compassion, and building trust in your own nervous system.
What “Unconditional” Really Means
Unconditional love doesn’t mean approving of everything about yourself, all the time. It doesn’t mean never wishing you could grow or change.
It means not withdrawing care from yourself when you stumble.
It means showing up with gentleness when you’re messy, tired, or struggling.
It means refusing to abandon yourself in the moments you need support the most.
Think of how we’d ideally treat a child: even when they make mistakes, they’re still deserving of safety, warmth, and care. Loving yourself unconditionally is offering that same stance to yourself – even if you don’t quite believe it yet.
Why So Many of Us Struggle
If love in childhood was conditional – given when we behaved, withdrawn when we didn’t – then unconditional acceptance can feel foreign.
If trauma wired shame, hypervigilance, or self-blame into our nervous system, self-compassion may feel impossible.
And if we never saw unconditional love modelled, we may not even know what it looks or feels like.
This is not a personal failure – it’s the legacy of our experiences.
A Pathway to Self-Acceptance: TRUST
At A Positive Start CIC, I often come back to our framework TRUST, because building self-trust is the foundation of any healing journey.
✨ Trigger recognition – Notice what comes up when you hear “love yourself unconditionally.” Does it spark discomfort, disbelief, or numbness? That awareness is the first step.
✨ Reassurance – Remind yourself that it’s normal to find this hard. Struggling doesn’t mean you’re failing – it means you’re human.
✨ Understanding – Explore where these difficulties come from, with compassion. Was love conditional in your past? Do old survival patterns still echo in your present?
✨ Safety – Create moments of calm and regulation where acceptance feels possible – whether through breath, movement, connection, or simply pausing.
✨ Truth – Honour your lived reality. Unconditional self-acceptance isn’t about pretending you’re always okay; it’s about acknowledging your truth without shame.
In Closing
Self-love isn’t a final destination. It’s a daily practice of choosing not to abandon yourself – especially when life feels heavy.
Sometimes unconditional love looks like celebration, but more often it looks like patience, persistence, and small acts of kindness.
So if the words “love yourself unconditionally” feel out of reach today, start smaller. Offer yourself compassion in one moment, one breath, one choice. Over time, these moments weave together into a foundation of trust – the kind of trust that allows love and acceptance to grow.
Because you are worth showing up for, exactly as you are.
Gratitude Attitude: Planting Seeds of Self-Worth
In our Self Discovery for Recovery program, we begin with the foundations: looking within, practising self-care, and repeating daily I Am affirmations. Why? Because repetition drives neuroplasticity. The more often we plant healthy thoughts, the stronger they grow.
Our thoughts shape our lives. Each one is a seed. Some grow into weeds that choke our growth, while others blossom into resilience, hope, and strength. The question is—are you planting intentionally, or letting weeds take over?
When we believe we have no choice, we often forget: not choosing is still a choice. By failing to plant with intention, we allow the wild seeds of negativity, fear, and comparison to take root. Gratitude, on the other hand, is a deliberate act. It is an attitude—a lens through which we view ourselves and the world. When we practise gratitude, we reinforce self-worth and create a ripple effect of compassion and hope around us.
The Myth of Toxic Positivity
Let’s clear something up: gratitude is not the same as toxic positivity. Toxic positivity dismisses pain, denies struggle, and insists on a smile no matter the storm. Gratitude is different. It doesn’t pretend life is easy. It acknowledges reality—both the hurt and the hope—and chooses to focus on what can still bring light.
I often see posts where people complain about others being “too positive.” But if you find yourself criticising someone else’s optimism, maybe the issue isn’t with them. Perhaps it’s a signal to look inward.
What Is Truly Toxic?
Real toxicity doesn’t come from people who choose hope—it comes from behaviours that drain life and dignity. Gossip. Criticism. Blame.
I’ve read many times that gossiping is “normal human behaviour.” But no—it’s only “normal” in a culture that takes pleasure in other people’s pain. Gossip is not harmless chatter; it’s a choice to spread harm. And the truth is, we always have a choice not to participate.
Every time we sit in circles of complaint, comparison, and judgment, we water weeds. Every time we choose gratitude, compassion, and growth, we water flowers.
Choose Wisely
What we put out into the world is what we get back. It’s simple but powerful: plant wisely, and your garden will reflect it.
Gratitude is more than a private feeling—it overflows into how we relate to others. A grateful heart softens judgment, making space for compassion and acceptance. When we notice what is good in our own lives, we become less focused on comparison and more open to connection. Gratitude humbles us, reminding us that everyone is on their own journey. Instead of criticising, we learn to accept. Instead of closing off, we lean in with kindness. Gratitude isn’t just about saying “thank you”—it’s about living with a spirit of appreciation that naturally extends empathy to others.
Here’s a guided affirmation to help you begin planting healthier seeds today:
Take a deep breath, listen, repeat, and remind yourself: your words shape your world.
✨ Gratitude is not pretending life is perfect—it’s choosing to see that even in imperfection, there is still growth, still beauty, still worth. ✨
The Stories We Tell Ourselves: Neural Pathways, Trauma, and Self-Worth
From the moment we are born, our brains are wired with remarkable potential. Dr. Dan Siegel’s Interpersonal Neurobiology reminds us that human beings develop through two kinds of neural pathways:
Experience-Expectant Pathways
These are the “hardwired” pathways we are born with, designed to expect and rely on certain experiences. For example, our brains are primed for language—we expect to hear words, to connect, to be nurtured. Importantly, as children, we are also hardwired to expect care. We anticipate being comforted when we cry, protected when we are frightened, and seen when we express joy.
Experience-Dependent Pathways
These pathways are shaped through what we learn and practice. Think of learning to ride a bike or play the guitar—at first it feels wobbly, unsteady, even impossible. But repetition strengthens those pathways until the skill feels natural. If we never take up cycling or music, those neural resources may be used in different ways.
When Nurture is Missing
When children’s experience-expectant needs for safety, love, and care are not met, those unmet needs don’t simply vanish. They leave echoes in the nervous system.
Instead of learning, “I am safe, I am loved, I am worthy,” many children internalise the opposite message. When caregivers criticise, shame, blame, or humiliate, children—whose very survival depends on attachment—rarely ask, “What’s wrong with my parent?” Instead, they ask, “What’s wrong with me?”
Sometimes this shows up in less obvious but equally impactful ways. For example, if an inexperienced caregiver consistently responds to a crying infant with food—rather than curiosity about what the child might truly need—the child learns to associate distress with eating, rather than being soothed, comforted, or understood. Fast forward into adulthood, and that same nervous system pattern can surface as someone standing in front of the fridge, not actually hungry but feeling unsettled and thinking: “I don’t know what I need.”
Over time, these repeated experiences strengthen neural pathways of self-criticism and self-doubt, while weakening the pathways of self-compassion and self-worth. This can manifest later in life as:
- Self-loathing
- Lack of confidence
- Chronic self-doubt
- The tendency to compare ourselves with others and wear a persona—a mask of confidence without inner substance
Mimicking What Looks Like “Normal”
Many people move through life mimicking what they believe is “normal” in others. They copy the behaviours, mannerisms, or confidence of those around them without having developed an inner sense of safety or self-worth. This isn’t true resilience—it’s survival. On the surface, they may appear confident, successful, or in control, but underneath there is often a fragile nervous system still searching for regulation, belonging, and authenticity. What looks like confidence is sometimes just a mask—an attempt to fit in when the inner story still whispers, “I am not enough.”
The Hope of Neuroplasticity
Here’s the good news: the brain is not fixed. Neuroplasticity is the lifelong ability of the brain to grow, change, and rewire itself. Just as negative experiences strengthened self-critical pathways, repetition of positive, self-affirming experiences can strengthen new pathways of self-worth.
Simple, consistent practices—such as guided affirmations (“I am worthy,” “I am enough,” “I am safe”)—might feel uncomfortable at first, just like those first wobbly pedals on a bike. But with repetition, these affirmations begin to “take root” in the nervous system. Over time, the brain learns to default to kindness instead of criticism.
From Survival to Thriving
When our nervous system is stuck in survival (constantly scanning for threat, whether real or perceived), we cannot easily learn, connect, or grow. But as we nurture new neural pathways of self-compassion, we move more often into the state of ventral vagal safety—a place where we feel safe, grounded, and capable of thriving.
This isn’t about pretending everything is fine or ignoring the pain of generational trauma. It’s about rewiring the way we speak to ourselves, so that the echoes of unmet needs are no longer louder than the truth of our inherent worth.
This is the Work We Do at A Positive Start CIC
At A Positive Start CIC, this understanding sits at the heart of everything we do. We support people who have lived through trauma to reconnect with their nervous systems, rebuild pathways of safety, and discover new ways of relating to themselves and others.
Through our Reconnect & Regulate workshops, STAND – Parents as Protectors programme, and the River Room Songbook for children, we use trauma-informed approaches to:
- Help people notice the stories they tell themselves
- Strengthen self-worth through repetition, connection, and compassion
- Provide safe, supportive spaces where healing and growth can take place
- Break cycles of generational trauma by offering new, healthier patterns of care and connection
We believe that change is possible at any stage of life. With the right knowledge, support, and practices, we can all learn to give ourselves the compassion we deserved from the beginning—and pass that healing forward.
Neuroplasticity shows us that it is never too late. At A Positive Start CIC, we walk alongside individuals, families, and communities to help them rewrite their inner stories, one compassionate step at a time.
by Deborah J Crozier
Founder & Lived Experience Practitioner at A Positive Start CIC